%%The more I meditate on this the more i feel that I tried to convince myself that being a speculator would be a meaningful life pursuit...when in reality i think that deep down I hoped it would be an expedient path to wealth. Now that my bubble of naivety has been popped I see what an absurd notion that was. I think this has all been a classic case of "get rich quick" dreaming under the veil or lie that "i want to be a trader because that would bring meaning to my life". Sad really. Not sure where to go from here.
I really do appreciate you all taking the time to comment on this thread it has helped me out.
WELL I had a car dealer give me 2 lotto tickets, a stupid tax on people that cant do math/get rich quick.But since my cost was $oo.00. I scratched them + no harm or win done.LOL .IF I was you, I would invest every month or quarter, in some thing like Fidelity....... ContraFund. SPY ,QQQ........
Once you get math mature,ZH horner you can be wrong+ wrong a lot + still make money.I was fairly bearish + wrong last week of DEC, on QQQ. BUT since it is a bull market I was in UPRO or SPXL + SPY so still made money, lots better than cash. But QQQ did a lot better the last week or 2, than SPY,; UPRO+ SPXL did better than QQQ.
BUT SPXL + UPRO don't pay as good a dividend as SPY. Dave Ramsey books + Jack Schwager/ Blair Hull interview/book helped. Cutting yards as a kid helped

