Quote from trader198:
trading itself is gambling.
whether you trade option, future, individual stock.
first, before you hit the button, you know nothing about what will happen
second, after you hit the button, you still do not know what will happen
third, when you are riding, you will never know what the market will go at specfic time.
after the market is closed, when you look back, it seems it is obvious (that is why most people think they are genius in market anlysis, like "I told you", "I know it", but in reality they failed miserablly), but that is illusion.
why you are not happy since you blieve making money needs skill or some effort. in your case, you paid efforts, but you got nothing even lost, you did not pay efforts, or involved in kind of
intelligence/skill, like heavn sent (you feel you are an idiot, GIFT kind of money making means deny your truth ability, someone gave you money like an assult to you), while you gained and won money (you expect only efforts paid then you can win money).
making money in trading does not need skill! intelligence? NO.
emotions? NO. disciplines? NO. working hard/thinkinghard efforts? NO. Trading plan? NO. Edges? NO. the same applies to losing money in trading!
that is your miscoception about making money in trading.
you define happiness by "make efforts, then get rewards". this is wrong.
when look around, someone born with everything they want. did they work hard? did they study hard? did they think hard? ....NO
you will feel that is unfair.
but in another side, someone born with nothing. they need work hard, they need think hard, they need... still hard to make ends meet. you feel you want somemercy on them.
that is why I belive in God. whether I win or lose, all is God's gift, so I am always happy.