Actually, that's exactly how it should work.
Because you shit your pants everyone else does?
That is exactly why you should not have a gun. Your garbage about being some intelligence agency assistant fantasist stuff and soldiers know better.
Look at the stats of who goes front line and even then, they are trained for it. It is not many. Plenty of soldiers get shot at a bit on their way from boring point a to b, not the same thing.
100 guys in a room have guns, maybe 1 to 4 of them are able to do anything useful. The rest have guns & do nothing with them or accidentally shoot others.
The NRA promotes ownership without competence. They are about gun sales and making noise, little more.
Their gun safety courses are a joke, so deficient that a US Ranger master Sargent used to call them "the Egyptian driving test". Can you drive backwards 20 yards? Good, here is your license.
Every mother shot by her little kid this month because the NRA blocked design R&D on preventing such accidents.. but you don't care about any of that.
The NRA is a cult. I am sure if we looked we might find alternative organisations who provide some competent level of education but until the NRA are handled, responsible gun ownership and training will be a rare beast.