lp, i'm pretty much a newbie much like you, with about a year's experience in this game (actually less than a year because I took a 3 month break when I almost destroyed my account). have you tried reading any books out there? if you haven't, i'd highly recommend "The Way of the Turtle" as well as "The Disciplined Trader" to try to get over psychological barriers when trading. My own capital has fluctuated greatly in my short time trading, but right now I'm just under my 20K break even point, and should (finally) be in the black by the end of this month. even after a year, i'm still tempted to break all my rules after a few bad trades, and thank my lucky stars i haven't gone bust yet. i think the very fear of losing the ability to trade keeps me on the cautious side, and i really do consider myself lucky.