I cant trade till tuesday anyways..,
But im just so sooo fucking fedup of this lack of being able to work!!
Since wednesday evening when i cockedup by getting cautious, and swappped £1,900 for £166.
I then couldnt trade all thursday cos the internet was down.
And then friday the market had barley $1 range and it was too low to sell it but to high to buy it, + it was too near expiry.
Then on friday night i metup my old mate from school and went to his uni campus and i had brought along £40+ worth of alcohol from the shop and i got everyone completely drunk (they are all doing advanced physics degrees so are normally studying equations) but i turned the place into a proper party where no eductation was allowed!!
And there was only 1 girl there and she had a bf, but i had spent teh whole night getting closer to her and slapping her bum and giving her my leather to jacket to keep her warm and then froze myself in just a tshirt but had to pretend that i couldnt feel cold trhough all my muscles!
but by about 3am i had gotten myself too drunk by creating a drink where you pour beer, bacardi breezer, rose wine and white rum all into your mouth at the same time (cant swallow till all 4 are in) and then swallowing it all in 1 and then doing it 6x in a row.
So i was then too drunk to make a move and invite myself to her bedroom and so i just feel asleep n wokeup the next day and foundout some nerdy little loser guy had waited till she got drunk with all teh alcohol i had paid for and then kissed her instead!!
So ive been feeling so soo gutted all weekend about missing hitting my target there that night,
and then i had to go through all of yesterday just watching shit tv and feeling poor, and then again another day of lazing around not earning today...
And then tomorrow i cant trade so another day gone with no earning,
but have to go and pay next months rent tomorrow.
(so losing 50% of my bank account capital)
I just so sooo mch now want to get back into the game and start raking in the cash again so i feel less depressed in my life...
