Quote from SirCumsized:
THere is a good chance you won't be around by the end of 2009. You have no respect for the market. Sure you may have skill, but no discipline. And in the end you will be crushed by your own doing. I used to be just like you....greedy and arrogant and thought I was bigger than market so no matter what I did, the market would eventually swing in my favor. Wrong. Friend, I started trading when oil was in the 30's..over 5 years ago. Seen prop traders come and go. I've had my share of blowups, but thing is I learned from them. More importantly, I actually made changes to my trading either than just saying I will. I wish you better, but in all probability, your next few trades, you will go in small, make a few ticks, then try to home run it too fast too soon, and get smoked again. And that will be the story until you get fed up with trading or lose all your money.
No one is bigger than the market. THose who view the market as a friend rather than an opponent make it in this game for the long term.
Sorry to be harsh, but I've been around to tell you, your case is nothing new. I've seen many times in my career. Only way to not be another statistic is to actively make changes. And even harsher, I think the only way you'll learn is to blow up and get wiped out a few times, then you'll respect the market and last in this game for the long run.