Quote from criveratrading:
Trader225, just a warning.
sounds like you're getting emboldened and fancy "taking on the markets" . your trading seems like you're just loading the boat for the hell of it; and talking up your book, making small inferences (hoping) certain bids/offers make your position look better/worse i.e. bids coming in , depth etc.
bail out of your trade, take whatever loss you have. i don't think, personally, it's a high probability trade to be getting long that size at a top tick in the market that is clearly getting rejected.
close out, go to bed, and don't trade for a couple days.
again; i see in your comments, some of the "take on the market, with size" mentality and you are building opinions here , sitting on a slug of ES at an illiquid time period.
spare yourself, get a good night of rest, and sell. all.