Since Neke has chosen not to respond to this suggestion and I still believe that this is one of the most practical suggestions given on this thread that can cure his problem, I will re-post. Maybe Neke will see it posted again and see the wisdom.
My personal experience: I was against full automation for full 2 years because I used to think that going 100% auto route will mean that I miss on too many opportunities that my systematic trading and coding cannot capture and especially special situations e.g. BP disaster a year ago etc. However, I realized that "not abiding" to the rules (I had a similar problem like Neke) was costing me a ton more. I was under-performing my system by a huge extent. This convinced me to go full auto route and I have been making more money every since with very limited drawdowns compared to when I was not full auto. Thanks.
Edit: Now, I spend my time testing newer rules, and doing stuff other than trading like going out, exercising, reading new things etc. Makes life more meaningful