Neke, I think you lost the value in money. You should take 30k and think all the things you could do with it and then send it to me. I can use it for my trading. 
You talk about not holding overnight even though you could have won. You have an account large enough to hold overnight. Most traders who day trade day trade because they don't have the capital to hold onto longer trades. Look at Gary Smith, as he built his account up he used less leverage and held for longer periods. Now he has over 2 million and you are dickering around with a 200k like it is nothing. Gary has the right attitude: 2 million is just a small account and needs protecting. I think you need to think about how your strategy makes sense with a larger account. With a small account, it may make sense to go all-in because frictions make it difficult to place smaller bets that are worthwhile. Yet with a larger account, you can place more worthwhile bets with less % capital at risk.
If you could have won by holding why weren't you? Why weren't you out to win? You lose huge amounts of capital and then just give up at the end of day. This doesn't seem like a good plan for me. You average down like you got balls of steel and then give just give up without even trying?
If you have an edge, it is not capable of returning the returns you seek with a decent risk adjusted basis. I agree you should reduce size immediately and aim for very modest gains until you demonstrate you have an edge. You should aim to keep MAX swings down to 4-5k a month until you show you can do this. Then maybe up them to 8k or 9k.
You've got to learn to let go of your losses and start fresh. I advise closing out this account, taking a break, and starting over with a better game plan.
Look at this way, you've hired yourself to trade your account. If you hired anyone to trade for you and they had these type of losses what would you do?
You started this whole thread off wrong with a desire to 'get back to break even'. You got to start fresh man. Start fresh. Keep the losses down to 4% to 5% of the account per month max and shoot for reasonable gains (2% to 3% per month). If you can do this for 6 months then you can raise the max loss to 8% to 9% per month.

You talk about not holding overnight even though you could have won. You have an account large enough to hold overnight. Most traders who day trade day trade because they don't have the capital to hold onto longer trades. Look at Gary Smith, as he built his account up he used less leverage and held for longer periods. Now he has over 2 million and you are dickering around with a 200k like it is nothing. Gary has the right attitude: 2 million is just a small account and needs protecting. I think you need to think about how your strategy makes sense with a larger account. With a small account, it may make sense to go all-in because frictions make it difficult to place smaller bets that are worthwhile. Yet with a larger account, you can place more worthwhile bets with less % capital at risk.
If you could have won by holding why weren't you? Why weren't you out to win? You lose huge amounts of capital and then just give up at the end of day. This doesn't seem like a good plan for me. You average down like you got balls of steel and then give just give up without even trying?
If you have an edge, it is not capable of returning the returns you seek with a decent risk adjusted basis. I agree you should reduce size immediately and aim for very modest gains until you demonstrate you have an edge. You should aim to keep MAX swings down to 4-5k a month until you show you can do this. Then maybe up them to 8k or 9k.
You've got to learn to let go of your losses and start fresh. I advise closing out this account, taking a break, and starting over with a better game plan.
Look at this way, you've hired yourself to trade your account. If you hired anyone to trade for you and they had these type of losses what would you do?
You started this whole thread off wrong with a desire to 'get back to break even'. You got to start fresh man. Start fresh. Keep the losses down to 4% to 5% of the account per month max and shoot for reasonable gains (2% to 3% per month). If you can do this for 6 months then you can raise the max loss to 8% to 9% per month.