TradStSOX,
Part of the trader's life is discipline to a set of rules that produce profit. I appreciate that your goal is to see an equity goal achieved, but I think you set yourself up for failure when you set yourself responsible for results you cannot guarantee, from factors you have no control over. The market is not a machine, it is people, and the greed and fear of millions of traders around the world affect the bid and ask. You have no more control over the price than does any other trader moving small numbers of contracts. In my mind, expecting such a goal of yourself is kin to your accepting to pay a debt that you have insufficient income to pay. You saddle yourself with a load of guilt not unlike overleveraging your account.
I don't know you, but I know your goal. We're all trading to at least make a living and at most retire early. You will save yourself grief and anger if you simply take what the market gives you and tally up the wins after the fact.