@tiddlywinks @RubberBand @7out @old coot
You are all trying to get me back to the futures platform. Thanks for your encouragement. I love trading, and am seriously considering your words. But I have to set a few things straight:
1) Mr. Winks, I don't want to argue again about the position sizing. IF I was scared because of the volatility, then I indeed did the right thing by scaling back until I was comfortable, since 90% of trading is psychological. I am brave enough to put my real trading in front of some pretty scrutinizing folks here on ET, and I am brave enough to resume the scaling. Had I kept going, there would be absolutely no way to keep growing at 2% per day without proper scaling, so it was a problem that would have fixed itself . . . .
2) Mr. Band, (a) the purpose of growing the account slowly and the purpose of the whole journal actually was to prepare me psychologically for larger profit - and loss - days. The volatility was real and it scared me, but not into inaction, just into smaller position sizes. (b) Good summary of the challenges of real estate agency!!! I agree that trading may be the better way at this time - if I have to choose. I am consulting the oracles now... (c) I am not scared I can't replicate my performance. No way. I am not running away because of fear of trading. --- I actually DO need the money. That is why I withdrew it. I am scared of running up my credit cards at 18% interest in order to pay my bills. And cash advances are like 23% interest.
3) Mr. Out, I do recognize the speed and liquidity of the trading. With the proper sized account, I know I can make $300 to $500+ per day, and that would certainly stop the hemorrhaging.
4) Mr. Coot, Fascinating story! You were extremely kind to sell your truck to help the guy. Indeed he killed the golden goose. So sad and short sighted he was.
In summary, I agree that it is sad I had to liquidate - when
trading may give me MUCH more upside than
real estate, especially in this market. I am contemplating your (mostly) kind words seriously about getting back in quickly. I wasn't planning on staying away forever... I realize that I can keep doing both, as I was previously, especially if I only trade the first two hours of the day. If I get more money sooner than later, how will I get it? Perhaps I need to be a bit creative. I am not scared about trading, but I must be prudent and provide for my family without risking foreclosure. I was actually close to losing my house during the recession 10 years ago because of real estate investments that went bad fast, and don't want to go through that ever again. The PTSD from that is still very much alive.
What will I do? It appears I have 4 options:
(1) Find $10k and start trading immediately again for the full trading day, really focusing, and forget real estate completely?
(2) Focus on real estate until things stabilize again before resuming trading?
(3) Forget trading completely and spend ALL my time doing real estate?
(4) Find $10k, trade my best for two hours each day, and continue to do real estate the other 6 to 8 working hours of the day.
Right now I am leaning toward Option 4. But I would have to find the money.
I will decide soon.
sstheo
p.s. I just ran the numbers again. If I start with
$10,000 and grow about 2% per day, I would average about $250/day and have about $5,000 profit at the end of the first month.
This is great news and certainly my bills would get paid. Interestingly, with $10k, I would actually be resuming approximately
where I would have been at this time if I had not stopped (assuming success), so 2% per day still gets me to $200,000 by Dec 31. But right now, that goal is obviously meaningless if I can make $5,000 per month and stay afloat.