I first started to write a longer reply, but the more I wrote, the more I realized that everything I was saying really detracted from you achieving your goals. I was discussing my take on the hedging, and trying to explain why I think scaling-in is a better strategy. But I stopped because I think what you really need now is just to continue doing exactly what it is that you are doing without any consideration for anyone else. You did after all grow your account 75% in one month. If you were trading the mini vs. the micro, this growth would have been even bigger because the commissions are a smaller fraction of the profit.
It was only a week ago where I pointed out how I thought you were already going down the wrong path with changing things up, and I can't help but feel this is so true again today.
https://www.elitetrader.com/et/thre...0-at-2-00-per-day.339591/page-16#post-5011516
I wish you would just continue to do everything the way you were doing it a few weeks ago.
Perhaps the gravity of what you're trying to accomplish is now hitting you, and this is precisely where 99% of traders fall off the wagon, so to speak. They let the dollar values affect them, and they start second guessing the care free attitude they had with regards to trading before it got more complicated. So now the strategy changes, and along with this, the stats of their trading.
So in order to not make this too long, I will finish with just these two points.
1. Was there anything really wrong with your trading? You talk about so many things you are trying to change with regards to hedging, and holding longer, etc. But since you grew 75% in a month, I think nothing needs to be changed at all, unless of course much of this was luck. I doubt this since it was hundreds of trades, but perhaps your mind won't be able to replicate this style of trading when you have more on your mind. But keep in mind the style of trading worked, at least for that environment. So this is why I keep saying don't change anything right now but just try and get another month of stats. There is no reason to change anything at all right now.
2. I think what would help process of detaching yourself emotionally from the trade, since this will have to be done as you increase the size you trade, is to just track everything in terms of ticks or points. This way, it won't matter if its 1 mNQ tick, or 1 NQ tick. We both agree the math works exactly the same, so who cares about the dollar value.
You know that at $3500 account size you can trade 7 contracts, at $4000 you can trade 8, etc. But at the core of what you are doing, and precisely for the purpose of scaling up, you're simply trying to make ticks/points, and the money profit will fall into place. So going forward, I think its best to just report points made per trade, and then the total for the day. You would end up with something like this.
Trades (lets assume NQ)
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+6 points
-5 points
+10 points
+5 point
- 8 points
+ 10 points
= 18 points
This is the only number that matters, a total of 18 points. Who cares if its with 1 NQ contract, or 1 mNQ contract, or 6 mNQ contracts. The result is the same for someone hoping to grow.
What's beautiful about this is that it will allow you to keep track of how you are really performing over the months. If your first week to made $30 in a day, but this was with only 1 mNQ, and then 2 months later you made $100, you might feel better about your progress. But if that $100 comes from trading 6 contracts, your actual performance is dropping. The $30 profit meant you made 15 points, whereas the $100 profit meant you made 8.3 points.
Now of course you can only take what the market offers, so I'm not saying you need to make 20 points per day, every day, since this may not be possible on some days. But by keeping track of point lost or gained, it will help you focus more on keeping up the consistency and allow you to better track your progress. Then use your account size simply as a guide for how many contracts you put on.