Hi,
My name is Marksman, and I was wondering if anyone who had experience of trading for a living can give me professional advices on how I can get myself going. I'm sorry for the long post, but it is to give you a general background of my nature.
Just a little background, I am a recent graduate with an economics degree. I am an introvert so I feel I am getting the end of the short stick when it comes to networking into a decent job or relationship building. I don't come from a wealthy family and I'm not the best student out there, and I don't stand-out as much as I could. After graduation, I went on to work in the corporate world in a couple of back-office roles as an entry level financial operations analyst, solving people's problem and letting the upper management get all the credit. I am a very passionate and helpful person and I love to help people anyway I would, but when I feel in a job where strong office politics and credit stealing runs wild, I've no longer had the compassion to continue. Long story short, after the stint they pulled off letting me go after all the contribution I've put in and receiving no recognition. I felt I've have no place in office job where I can work myself up the corporate ladder. I've gave myself time to figure out what I wanted to do with the remainder of my youth.
Thinking back, I felt that going to college was a waste of my 4 year of college, but it didn't go to waste, during my last year, I've encounter a beginners course in options and futures. By no means, I've never thought I would want to become a full-time options derivatives trader and dream of becoming the very best.
A while back during my first job, I've remember the first time I've ever opened an account with a brokerage and traded my first share of Google, but it didn't really excited me. On my mobile phone in the ThinkorSwim, there was a button for options. Thinking back, being the naive overconfident idiot not knowing what I was doing and I put in a trade $2000 long calls worth on a Google stock that was already peaking at 600 range at the top, saw it from from $400 unrealized profit down to -$2000 market value in matter of an hour. A strange feeling came across me, yes I did felt sick and was ready to vomit losing almost a month's pay in matter of minutes, but I also felt I've discovered and learned something from a different perspective, being humble about it and know that if I could lose that as fast and that would mean it is possible to make it that fast also. From then on, I've made a promise to learn and become a options trader. It sounds bizarre, I've never had any interested in trading stocks in whole my life my life before but when I started I've immediately became hooked with option trading.
Keep in mind, this was trying to trade options while working a full time job and that was a big No-No, especially a suicidal attempt at the market. This went on for a while, to be honest, I had no real market analysis experience or trading experience, I kept losing money. I've probably lost 10k in total over a period of couple of small losing trades. Fast forward, to my last job as an entry level financial operations analyst, I was paid okay salary for a freelancer, but I realized I won't make it big time, after losing my motivation and feeling depressed. I've changed my outlook and seek to move towards what drives me. I would never expected it to be trading, but specifically options trading. In my last two month, I've never had such intense desire, motivation, and perseverance to really wanted to do this full time. Everyday after work, I would come home, make dinner and watch/ read about trading from any reasonable source of information. The biggest turning point was knowing that I made my 8 hour shifts pay in matter of minutes, I no longer felt motivated and the situation was compounded with the boss who takes all the credit for my work. I don't want to say I am in trading for the money, I feel that the market challenges me in a way no other job could. I have the freedom to create my own approach, my own rules and try to make something out it in the market. I feel if I can master trading, the money will come, until then I will have to stay humble and keep learning and think of new ways to improve my odds in the market.
But from Hindsight, I knew that if I ever wanted to become successful in anything or at least a path to success, I would need to put in 100% dedication. Starting from scratch with all the losses and experience that came with it, I went on to read and understand how options works. In my last two month of trading options and messing and tweaking around with the black-scholes model in excel, I can say from experience, I am getting to understand the nature of how options values shifts from the underlying movement.
Fast forward to my current situation now, I've recently ended my corporate job and I've saved up about 10k for options trading, and a 6 month living expense. I know my probability of success is slim, but I feel I want to give this a shot as I am still young, I want to know that my life didn't go to waste at least I tried to go after something I felt passionate about.
I didn't come from a traditional finance background, and I know I still lack in market analysis, emotional trading, risk management, but I am putting a lot of my effort as I would do in a regular job to see myself trying to make it in this business.
I am reaching out to you for advices from your personal experience or professional experience you had trading/ options trading in general. I'm a very fond learner of people's life experience, I would love to hear your thoughts and recommendations.