take your emotions out of the game.
Look for a prop group that will train and fully fund you. Don't put any of your money up until you feel comfortable with your trading.
I dislike Nx, it's a fase sense of security.
It only works when the Spec wants to unload. It's like hitting an ARCA with reserve orders, when I get filled he has plenty more to sell. If I don't get filled the stock keeps going.